It’s one of the verses displayed on cards for the purpose of encouragement. But if I am honest, I have a ‘love/hate’ relationship with the truth.
“When I am weak, He is strong.”
Why isn’t the promise “When you are weak, I will make you strong”?
Weakness is far from my preference! I do not like to live in the varied arenas of my weaknesses! It leaves me vulnerable. It can be embarrassing, and at times leaves me aware of my ultimate powerlessness to make life different in ways that I desire!
We start at birth being vulnerable in the big world, inadequate in caring for ourselves. Weak. At the mercy of those big people around us.
Ideally, we were to experience that being weak creates the environment for someone to tenderly and with strong intention enter our world in order to make sure we are cared for. To learn experientially that we are so precious and loved that our needs will be met. It is safe to be weak, because there are those who are stronger who will join us. Weakness is an opportunity to be loved.
I did not saturate in this environment, giving me a confidence and settled-ness in my weakness. This sadly plays out in my daily living, including my resistance with God. I tend to want for Him to make me strong and invulnerable. I’d rather be strong than to settle into the tender but strong ways He comes into my life to ‘have my back’ and love on me well.
The more I experience and focus on the remarkable ways He comes into my daily life, I am gradually growing in my amazement and confidence. My weaknesses are an opportunity for God to love on me.
I most certainly want for the trend of this inconvenient truth to continue!